copied from a post on my xanga:
"this life is getting old..
need to try something new. go out with someone id never normally ask out. listen to music id never listened to before.be consistently happy and content with life in general..do well in school..change this routine that's grinding away at this existential self which is me. I need to reform and revolutionize my thoughts. its time for change. its time for love and logic. time for a lot of things to happen that should but haven't due to motivation. and fear. its time to lose this routine, and find my path.learn a new instrument. write something phenominal. invent something great and wonderful. to stop thinking about me, and more about I. Us doesn't even really exist..just a fusion of a memory and conscience that doesnt exist. need to stop playing video games and start playing the stock market. work out more..work more..need to take some iniative, because before you know it, you'll be reading the bible in some small-town minnesota church in january as slowly but surely all your aquaintances get picked off by the systematic destruction which is life... old age doesn't exist, its merely the lack of vigor. you need to realize some day you will die. until you realize this....you are useless."